Sometimes you wonder where you will end up in life. Who you will love, who will stand there beside you when times get tough, and who will always be your best friend.
Feelings of joy, elation, trust, are associated with your other half, your fellow friend. The one who you can sit in silence with for hours without it being awkward, where you purely enjoy being in each other’s company. Someone who’s there to support you when that boy you loved broke your heart, someone who you can sit hours on the phone to discussing the most random things, from what song you enjoy listening to, to when your next catch up session is.
What do you do when that person has been there so long for you, finally turns their back on you? Do you let it happen, and let all the years and history slide by?
You can never really imagine it being like this, to act now as though one another doesn’t exist, like your path together never really meant anything and now is just a fragment of your imagination, and part of memories you hold dear.
Is this is what life is about? Letting ones go that you love, moving forward, that is all part of life, but do you really have anything in common left with this person? Or is it just best to go separate paths, to maybe one day meet again and smile and ask how each other are doing.
Things are strained now, no eye contact, no polite “Hello, how are you?” Is it really that easy to forget? To act as though you have never made an impact on that person’s life?
Is it right for you to burn in pain, and put a smile on your face when inside you feel betrayed, but also feel your actions in retaliation are justifiable, to your now acquaintances, own actions?
True friends stick by you, does that mean I have let go now? When a friend backstabs you and destroys everything you ever respected and loved about them, does it mean I should let it flow away because that person has changed?
Change is inevitable in life; nothing as such ever stays the same. As people grow, you often grow with one another, develop new views, learn new things, come a little closer on that journey of ‘self discovery’. Sometimes it comes down to no answers on why people do things, maybe there is a struggle within the one that hurt you, who maybe is trying to find their place in the world, and unfortunately gets a bit lost along the way.
Words can be harsh and cruel, people can be cowardly, but people can also have depths of emotional capacity which one might have thought not possible. You hurt because you care, you hurt because the happiness is gone, because confusion, bitterness, and betrayal are now the feelings you feel.
Life is short; don’t walk away on those who matter the most. Or maybe that’s it, ‘mattered’ being in past tense, meaning they don’t care anymore, so you shouldn’t care either. Do things really get to the point of being irreversible?
The point is often though you do care, you get over it, and your pain is numb, the smile and composed facial expression a mask. But do you really ever stop caring and maybe still hold a little hope that maybe one day, you will find something in common with that person again, and start afresh?
You don’t want to fade, you want people to realise how much you cared for them, and how much you were a big part of their life. You don’t want to lose them either, but maybe it’s what you think your losing, may be a gain in the long run.
There’s always the classic saying of, “It’s not how long they were there for, it’s how long they are going to be here for.”
So on life’s winding long road, smile a lot, don’t cry for those who won’t cry over you, and maybe in the future if your paths were to cross again, that person may need you, so smile and lend a hand. Who knows, maybe your meant to be in each other’s lives. Be level headed, respect others for who they are, be open minded, compassionate, caring, sincere, loyal, resilient, optimistic, persistent, trustworthy and honest.
You keep your head held high, don’t look back, but stride to the future with confidence and learn from past experiences, and always have goodness in your heart. And most of all, remember who you are, and those that are always going to be there for you.
Life’s a long road, take good friends with you.
By D.Skinner – Copyright 2010
nice. :) xox
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